Fear that lead to the end

A very gentle soul who struggled decided to take the matter to his own hands.
Just shy of 1 week for the scan to show if the new treatment was working or not.
He was afraid that the treatment was not effective.
Increasing pain and  insurance struggle to get his pain medications did not help but added more pressure.
He felt hopeless.
Then one day, a week after we saw him, we received a call from his wife.
She found him in the garage, in the car, while she went to the store.
It was shocking and tremendously sad.
What made me sadder was that he was all by himself struggling with fear and the fear overtook him finally.
How lonely and scared he would have been to end it all.
No sign, never really told anyone of his fears.
I asked about our responsibility as his nurse practitioner and my attending as his physician.
Nobody could have predicted this and I am sure that he did not either.

From time to time, I think of his fear... His lonely struggles that lead to the end...